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You may not realize how much better you are doing — Recovery from trauma can take a long time. It’s frustrating because you want to be “done” and get on with your life. I have CPTSD and have been in trauma therapy for a long time. An unethical therapist set me back on my healing journey, but I am back on…

Or is the news feed just really messed up? — I’m starting to wonder if there is anyone besides a small group still writing on Medium. Why? Because I’m just not seeing recent stories in my news feed. In fact, I’m seeing really old stories. Like, 3–7 years old! I’m fine with discovering old treasures, but this is getting terrible…

There’s a name for that — My friend loves ASMR videos. LOVES them. He keeps sending them to me to “help me relax.” Well, they don’t. They creep me out. I don’t like the sound of crunching, rustling, crumpling, spraying, or whispering into a microphone. I don’t know how anyone can find that relaxing. No offense…

I didn’t know crying was so risky — I’ve been having a rough week. Yesterday morning, I was really missing my mother, and I started crying. I’m talking gut wrenching sobs. Grief has a life of its own. You can’t predict or control it. In the middle of sobbing, my right side started hurting. When I finally stopped…

You must fight for it — fiercely! — I’ve been on a long healing journey for the past few years. My healing needs are part physical and part emotional. During my journey, I’ve learned one thing with certainty. Healing is not for the faint of heart. You must fight for it—fiercely! Chronic Pain I’ve had chronic pain in my low…

It’s never a good idea to cut giving — I received an email last night from Amazon notifying me they are discontinuing the charity donation program Amazon Smile. In case you didn’t know, you could make Amazon purchases through smile.amazon.com and 0.5% of money from your purchases would go to the charity of your choice. It was a nice…

And my favorite lead guitarist of all time — I was tagged by Lu Skerdoo to share one of my favorite older songs. I’m a musician (piano, guitar, mandolin, and banjo) and a songwriter, so I thought this would be a fun prompt. I love many genres of music, so it was hard to pick out just one song…

I am too exhausted to care about anything — I haven’t felt like writing or doing much of anything this week that didn’t absolutely have to get done. Reading requires too much concentration, and I don’t even care enough to watch TV. I can’t make the tiniest of decisions. I’m exhausted, but can’t sleep well. Laundry? Dishes? Who cares…

It’s difficult, but worth the effort — The memorial service for my best friend’s mother is this afternoon, and it’s going to bring up a lot of feelings because my mom died only 4 months ago. Both my friend and his sister-in-law told me they would understand if I couldn’t handle coming. I seriously considered watching the…