I am so sorry for what you are dealing with, Shannon. I have health concerns and no insurance either. It's a crime that in the richest country in the world, there are so many who still can't afford health care. I feel you on the silence from friends too. The hardest lesson I have learned over the past year is that they don't care. They don't share my work either. They won't even like my social pages. My church is absent too. (Except for the prayers thing.) It is frightening beyond belief to work so hard and still not have what you need. I can't do much to help, but I feel your grief. It's not your fault.